When I walk through the Valley of Death...Part 1

Have been a long time since I posted and it was a truly trying time for me the past week as I journeyed through the most difficult part of my life.

Here's just a simple time line of events which happened so that when i look back in life, I will be able to remember the Lord's Goodness and His everlasting love.

13/04/09

2pm:
- Kit took the day off to accompany me to Dr Chan's clinic. Although i appeared to be ok and feels ok, sthing inside me was feeling nagging me. Brushed it aside that it will be due to my nervousnesss as Dr Chan has already warned me that if my BP is still high, i may need to be warded in KK for observations.

3pm:
- Arrived at Dr Chan's clinic but there wasn't anyone as Dr Chan was away on vacation and only 1 nurse was on duty. We assumed that since she's still out and Kit and I have yet to lunch, we went to Paragon for some food. Called the nurse to make sure that I will be having an appointment and she wanted me to be down at 3:30pm to take BP in case it gets very high and I will need to be referred to another doctor.
- Food arrived and at the same time, I felt the same tiring, painful knots in my upper abdomen. Didn't really want to voice out to Kit as i was worried that he will think I'm just worrying too much.

3:45pm:
- Arrived at OG Clinic. Nurse took my weight. Great news! It seems that I have gained weight. (Unfortunately, it was due to my water starting to retain in my liver and lungs. A starting point for the worse to come...)
- Took the Urine test. Failed 1st test. Protein level in urine is too high at 3+++. Started to worry as I could feel severe pains in stomach. Kit could sense me tensing up and he started to reassure me that nothing was wrong just becos I was panicking that's the reason for the tummy ache.

3:50pm:
- After a short rest and taking some warm water, we decided that I have rested enough and I appear to be better able to take BP. (Haha a lil playing cheat here...)

- BP results out. Nurse looked at me and told me its at a high of 190/110. It was
wayyyy too high. We decided for me to lie down and try again after 5 mins.

- 2nd BP results: 180/110.

- Nurse didn't want to risk anything more. I was sent to the next doctor @ Far EAst Plaza for further advice. SHIT!!! I really wanted to Kill myself. What have I gotten myself into??!! Is baby safe??!!!!!

4:10pm:
- I didn't want to risk having another level of high BP... so I told Kit that I want to take a taxi from MT E to Far EAst. I believe in normal days, just to save the $$, I would have gladly walked and do some shopping at the same time. But this time,I will gladly spend the $$ just to make sure everything is safe and most importantly, I just want to be at home. With my gers, with Kit.